Ever Lose Someone Close To You?

I was sitting here looking at my grandmother's "memory" page on Facebook that my sister made and as normal it upset me and I just wanted to come here and see who else has lost someone really close to you that even months later looking at their pictures or reading something you wrote about them makes you upset. I'm sure it's happened to everyone here, or the majority, but would anyone like to share a story?

Heres mine;

At the beginning of 2009 we noticed my grandmother had been getting sick and she couldn't get up to walk anymore and she couldn't do anything on her own. Everyday we went to her house I could tell she wasn't getting better. In March of 2009 I lost my dog to kidney stones, the problem we noticed with him is he couldn't urinate, what made it worse with my grandmother, she couldn't either. That's when worry really kicked in because we had just lost our dog of that reason. One day my mom and her brothers and sisters[11 kids total] decided it was time to call the squad. My grandmother hated doctors and she never went to them because she disliked them. Needless to say the squad came and got her and she was transported about 2 hours away to a bigger hospital. After a few weeks there she was moved back here to a nursing home. She was in the nursing home from the end of March 09 until April 25, 2010, when she passed away. Throughout her year plus stay at the nursing home you could see she wasn't going to get any better. My grandmother was 82 years old. She and my grandfather had been married 60+ years. It tore my grandfather to part but he held up, he is 89 and still living.

In March of this year you could really see she was going down hill and I knew it was going to happen at any time but I didn't want to think about it. On Sunday April 25, 2010, me, my mom, my dad and my nephew[a little over a year] were outside and my cell rang. It was my cousin telling me that my grandmother had just passed away. I handled it okay at first but then it just kicked in after I thought about it and it really broke my heart. I grew up with her as my only real grandmother because sadly my other grandmother passed away when I was 8. Up until I was 8, when that grandmother passed away, I was alot closer to her than the one that just passed not to long ago, but after that I became really close to this one. My grandmother was so used to having a full house. 11 kids, 26 grandkids and about 50 great grandkids. She had Alzheimer's which did not help. Up until she was about 76-77 she didn't care how old you were or how big, you weren't too big to sit on her lap, she didn't care your age. She didn't like pets, she wouldn't rub them, but the dog that roamed the neighborhood, we called him Chubby, she called him Short Legs, she always made sure he went home full.

That Monday following her death I didn't go to school, I just couldn't. I went that Tuesday then stayed home that Wednesday for her funeral. I ended up staying home Thursday as well because I didn't feel all to well.

The reason I ask, I'm a 17 year old boy and in the minds of others why would a 17 year old boy be so upset over his grandmother dieing? But I was close to my grandmother and it just makes it much worse. Now your probably hoping I'll shut up now, so I will. I just wondered if anyone else has lost someone that close to them that they still get upset months later.

I also have to mention, the song played at her funeral, well one of them, was "Holes In The Floor Of Heaven" and anytime I hear that song now, I cry. I'll admit I do. I bought the song from Itunes recently just to play it every so often for memories. And boy do the memories floor.

But I'll stop now and let you guys have a turn, but before I go I'll share some pictures with you guys.


My grandparents way back in their dating years.


My grandmother when she first went in the nursing hom.


My grandparents, a few months after my grandma went in the nursing home.


One of her last days before she passed, holding my neice.


That sign has always hung in her kitchen and I wanted a picture of it.