If You Really Knew Me.....

Everybody here has there own personality's here some are diva lovers,some are indy fans,some just hate wrestling but what if they really knew you?.What are you really doing after you leave the fourm what is it like a day in your shoes.Feel free to say whats on your mind you dont have to if you dont want too.Just make sure you start the phrase off with If You Really Knew Me.

i'm a mom, a nanny and a college student off the forum.

that's pretty much it. Sometimes on the weekends I go out to movies alone.

but the past month I have been going out on dates with this nice older man I met.

sports is a passion of mine, whether being playing it or watching it. thats what i do when i get off here

If you really know me.........you would know I'm almost never home any weekends, i visit friends and family often. I enjoy writing and creative writing. I could be very loud and energetic.

If you really knew me you'd know that I'm almost the same identical irl to what I've been here. I'm a joker and I don;t a lot seriously. But I don't like hateful people

I hate celebrity news. WHO CARES who's having a baby or who got botox?! FUCK YOU!

if you knew me youd know that I AM GANGSTA

SMH dude, smh!

Coin-Operated Boy wrote:

If you really know me.........you would know I'm almost never home any weekends, i visit friends and family often. I enjoy writing and creative writing. I could be very loud and energetic.

you seem like a loud person...just from knowing you here on msn you have a loud personality, if that makes sense...

The Sexy Vixen wrote:

Coin-Operated Boy wrote:

If you really know me.........you would know I'm almost never home any weekends, i visit friends and family often. I enjoy writing and creative writing. I could be very loud and energetic.

you seem like a loud person...just from knowing you here on msn you have a loud personality, if that makes sense...

Lol it makes sense, my cousin once spoke to his friend Athenas on MSN, before i met her, and i was like, she's a tiny girl and loud right? he was like "Yeah how did you know"....."Purely on how she wrote her stuff on MSN, she seemed like that kind of person. And i was right lol.

The#1DivaOfDKF wrote:

Im gonna do this the MTV way.

If you really really knew me , you'd know that i dont have a lot of self confident, i think im really ugly, im jealous of other pretty girls, and i like to cut myself...why? only god knows, If you really knew me you'd know that i used to be a druggie and a drinker, i have relationship issues , i sometimes hurt the people i love, but at the end of day if you really knew me , you'd know that is who i am i am proud, and how i survived it all makes me who i am

I am so sorry, I wouldnt have guessed this from you, becasue you are very outgoing on here.
I know what you are going through, I have been there. I used to cut myself so many times and it landed me in the psych hospital at one point.
I think you are beautiful inside and out. As the saying goes what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. You are a strong woman and I have a lot of respect for you, espeically after this post.


Heres Mine:
If you really knew me, Youd know I lived and still live a sheltered life. I am a very shy person. I am not good with people at all. I dont have oppertunties to go places and meet new people becasue I cant drive and dont have a whole lot of friends. I used to cut myself, I faught Depression, I have been misdiognosed for so many years before I was finally diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome and High Functoning Autism. I spent 5 days in a psych hostpital and even that didnt work, staying at a family care home for a year did though. I as well am jealous of pretty girls including some wwe divas, Becasue I dont think Im pretty.
I have a twin sister who can get any guy in the world she wants. She has guys hitting on her EVERYDAY. She can practially be a model. She is really pretty, thin. I havent had a guy pay any attention to me or want to date me. Im jealous of her becasue of it as well.
And I want to find a guy and get married and have a family. I am 28 years old and have barely had experience in relationships with guys. I want to find that right man. I feel like my clock is ticking.
Last But Not least-The animals I encounter at my work and espeically Jordan-My sisters dog-Keep me from going crazy. I consider every animal I encounter at my work my friend. I one day want to own an animal shelter and rescue animals who are at highest risk of being put to sleep and give them a 2nd chance at life.

Sorry its so long.

The#1DivaOfDKF wrote:

i like to cut myself...why? only god knows,

I think you do know, just affraid to say it. I used to cut myself, me and my dad never saw each other eye to eye, once he was drunk i could remember we had this fight and i could remember he grabbed my neck and i swore he was going to choke me. He didn't but when drunk my father has said many times how dissapointed he was in me, and everytime he said it, i cut. I have the scars are reminders. I thought that his words hurt me so much, i'd find something else that would hurt more, hence the cutting.

Me and my dad still don't see eye to eye, because we have diffrent ways of thinking. This is so stupid i'm in tears writing this, but he is proud of me and how far i've made it and the person i've become. He never told me, but i could see it in his eyes when i left to live in holland. Plus my mom fills me in everytime on how much he complains to my brother about not getting things done like i used to or how much he appreciate the things i used to do, because now that i'm gone, they are not getting done.

Holy damn, not that my life is better, but though i was the only one who lived a f'd up life.

If you really Knew Me......you would know i have been teased, bullied and practically tortured at school for being gay since i was 8. I myself never understood why i was being bullied at sschool for it. I never said "I'm gay" to myself until i was 16. I struggled my entire teenage years with that. For this exact reason i always felt athleticly in gym class, i had to be a top peformer, because i wasn't going to be bullied for being gay (although until i was 11 i truly understood why i was being bullied) and be a piss poor athlete, needed to prove myself.

If you really knew me....you would know i've never had sex or oral before, i've never been in a relationship or even had a kiss (on the lips -_-), I hate myself for it, but i could only blame myself. Like everyone on this forum it seems, i struggle with looks as well. I think no one would ever bother with someone who looks like me, because i personally believe i'm not that good look. I've lied to people in real life about kissing people, i lied about past relationships, to the point where i feel i've become a compolsive liar. I never lie about my virginity but i don't go out and broadcast it either...like i did now -_-.

So yeah....that's...if you really knew me.

If You Really Knew Me....You would know that Im a VERY shy person,I use to get picked on at school ALOT so I decied to not talk anymore at school because I just dont want to be bother at school.Girls just laugh at me and just think Im just a waste off face.I have cousin's who dont want to hang out with me at all or just think Im a punk and a wuss.I hate my life and would switch it with someone else.

DL, if you lived near me and were 18+ I'd ask you out. You seem like a nice guy..aside from the Kelly obsession lol

plus you can be funny at times and I enjoy chatting with you in PMs on the forum. You can usually make me smile

The#1DivaOfDKF wrote:

Im gonna do this the MTV way.

If you really really knew me , you'd know that i dont have a lot of self confident, i think im really ugly, im jealous of other pretty girls, and i like to cut myself...why? only god knows, If you really knew me you'd know that i used to be a druggie and a drinker, i have relationship issues , i sometimes hurt the people i love, but at the end of day if you really knew me , you'd know that is who i am i am proud, and how i survived it all makes me who i am

you have no reason to be jealous, hun...you are gorgeous. You look way better than I do, that's for sure.

but i understand your feelings. Girls intimidate me....which is why i dont have female friends. I also have depression due to the sexual abuse and rape i suffered as a kid..followed by years of emotional abuse from my mom. i never cut myself but i have attempted suicide many times as a teen. Wound up in the hospital every time.

But Reign just know you have me, sis and I think the world of you and you are most definitely a hotty. You have the looks and personality that make you a perfect 10.

He's an idiot if he dumps you, Reign...a fucking idiot

If you really knew me you'd know that I don't open up very easily to people. I have to have a lot of trust in them to be able to share even the slightest of my feelings to. Coming up in my family we didn't have the dinner table heartfelt TV moments - we all usually did our own thing. The first time the words "I love you" came out of my mouth was at my grandmother's funeral in 1999. My sister who was standing to my left in front of the casket asked me what I said and I nodded her off as if I didn't say anything. I didn't tell my mom that I loved her until sometime last year. I had to let it be known because I learn from my grandmother's loss when I was 12 that tomorrow truly isn't promised.

If you really Knew me.....you would know i'm an over achiever, i think presentation is the most important thing. Most of my school projects were OVER the top. The Teachers had to look at it and want to give me and a perfect score....although the content may be a little bad, by just looking at it, it looks perfect, so they won't always be as critical. I'm VERY upsessed with having a good image and always being presentable. To me how you present yourself is everything and i am a big believer of that.

The#1DivaOfDKF wrote:

I foyu really knew me , you'd know that my boyfriend deleted his facebook.....aka i think its gonna be over soon.

Im sorry to hear that. If he dumps you its his loss.

If You Really Knew Me...
You would know that My life is back and I'm officially drug free!

Vengenz wrote:

I was just reading everything and...wow guys. We all have our own demons and battles outside of here.

I guess my 'story' is that my dad verbally abuses me and my family. We hate living here together. My mom's trying to get divorced but it's taking a long time and it's getting worse as time goes on. :/

But when I'm not on the forum, I'm usually talking to my boyfriend. He's all I really have right now.

i'm sorry to hear that, Venom. My mother is exactly the same..verbally/mentally/emotionally abusive. I hated living with her. I joined every extracurricular activity i could just so i'd have a reason to not go home after school. Then it all blew up when i was 17 and she kicked me out and i spent most of my senior year in high school homeless.

but dont worry, things WILL get better and you will look back on this horrible chapter of your life as something that helped mold you into the awesome woman you see in the mirror. It just serves to make you stronger. So dont ever think you should give up.

The Sexy Vixen wrote:

Vengenz wrote:

I was just reading everything and...wow guys. We all have our own demons and battles outside of here.

I guess my 'story' is that my dad verbally abuses me and my family. We hate living here together. My mom's trying to get divorced but it's taking a long time and it's getting worse as time goes on. :/

But when I'm not on the forum, I'm usually talking to my boyfriend. He's all I really have right now.

i'm sorry to hear that, Venom. My mother is exactly the same..verbally/mentally/emotionally abusive. I hated living with her. I joined every extracurricular activity i could just so i'd have a reason to not go home after school. Then it all blew up when i was 17 and she kicked me out and i spent most of my senior year in high school homeless.

but dont worry, things WILL get better and you will look back on this horrible chapter of your life as something that helped mold you into the awesome woman you see in the mirror. It just serves to make you stronger. So dont ever think you should give up.

If you went to my high school, I woulda talked my parents into you living with me

If you really knew me you'd know that I am a motorhead. I love cars and F1 and I love motorbikes and MotoGP. You'd know the stress I've been under recently, everyone turns to me when they have problems and combined with a hell of a lot of revision it can get quite stressful at times. That is part of the reason why I've taken two breaks from the forum since I joined. You'd know that I want to be liked, but I want people to like me as a friend or someone they can see eye-to-eye, not just for the sake of it. I was really upset when someone I thought was a friend effectively asked me to fuck off just because someone else wasn't there. You'd know that I care for my family, I look out for my younger sister and help both of my parents regularly. You'd know that I had a passion for rugby and have risked serious injury (my neck, which I injured for the 3rd time in 5 months last weekend) just to play. You'd know that I am an avid guitar player who likes to keep things simple (5 chords, only strumming).

You know that I am what I am, and that ain't gonna change.

The Voice Of VLG. wrote:

If you really knew me you'd know that I am a motorhead. I love cars and F1 and I love motorbikes and MotoGP. You'd know the stress I've been under recently, everyone turns to me when they have problems and combined with a hell of a lot of revision it can get quite stressful at times. That is part of the reason why I've taken two breaks from the forum since I joined. You'd know that I want to be liked, but I want people to like me as a friend or someone they can see eye-to-eye, not just for the sake of it. I was really upset when someone I thought was a friend effectively asked me to fuck off just because someone else wasn't there. You'd know that I care for my family, I look out for my younger sister and help both of my parents regularly. You'd know that I had a passion for rugby and have risked serious injury (my neck, which I injured for the 3rd time in 5 months last weekend) just to play. You'd know that I am an avid guitar player who likes to keep things simple (5 chords, only strumming).

You know that I am what I am, and that ain't gonna change.

If you really knew me.......you'd know, that i believe, unlike all of us who posted something that made us who we are today, your post was more of an insight of who you are, instead of how you are....if you get me lol. Which is truly great

Coin-Operated Boy wrote:

The Voice Of VLG. wrote:

If you really knew me you'd know that I am a motorhead. I love cars and F1 and I love motorbikes and MotoGP. You'd know the stress I've been under recently, everyone turns to me when they have problems and combined with a hell of a lot of revision it can get quite stressful at times. That is part of the reason why I've taken two breaks from the forum since I joined. You'd know that I want to be liked, but I want people to like me as a friend or someone they can see eye-to-eye, not just for the sake of it. I was really upset when someone I thought was a friend effectively asked me to fuck off just because someone else wasn't there. You'd know that I care for my family, I look out for my younger sister and help both of my parents regularly. You'd know that I had a passion for rugby and have risked serious injury (my neck, which I injured for the 3rd time in 5 months last weekend) just to play. You'd know that I am an avid guitar player who likes to keep things simple (5 chords, only strumming).

You know that I am what I am, and that ain't gonna change.

If you really knew me.......you'd know, that i believe, unlike all of us who posted something that made us who we are today, your post was more of an insight of who you are, instead of how you are....if you get me lol. Which is truly great

Imma just letting you make you mind up about me. In my eyes, I can't say how I am. That is for other people to do.

XXX wrote:

The Sexy Vixen wrote:

Vengenz wrote:

I was just reading everything and...wow guys. We all have our own demons and battles outside of here.

I guess my 'story' is that my dad verbally abuses me and my family. We hate living here together. My mom's trying to get divorced but it's taking a long time and it's getting worse as time goes on. :/

But when I'm not on the forum, I'm usually talking to my boyfriend. He's all I really have right now.

i'm sorry to hear that, Venom. My mother is exactly the same..verbally/mentally/emotionally abusive. I hated living with her. I joined every extracurricular activity i could just so i'd have a reason to not go home after school. Then it all blew up when i was 17 and she kicked me out and i spent most of my senior year in high school homeless.

but dont worry, things WILL get better and you will look back on this horrible chapter of your life as something that helped mold you into the awesome woman you see in the mirror. It just serves to make you stronger. So dont ever think you should give up.

If you went to my high school, I woulda talked my parents into you living with me

aww

Slumber party every night

The Voice Of VLG. wrote:

Imma just letting you make you mind up about me. In my eyes, I can't say how I am. That is for other people to do.

Well, with your post i would know what to expect. You have no idea how much that post, describes you and how much i see in you. You are obviously a very honest person, just by your reply i can see that. You are also a very passionate person for the things in life that make you happy. You are also very dedicated and determined with everything you do, and give 110% for everything.

It also shows your very artistic and has a gentle side, which you express in your music.

Lol, this is me just babbling But I do hope i'm partially right.

Coin-Operated Boy wrote:

The Voice Of VLG. wrote:

Imma just letting you make you mind up about me. In my eyes, I can't say how I am. That is for other people to do.

Well, with your post i would know what to expect. You have no idea how much that post, describes you and how much i see in you. You are obviously a very honest person, just by your reply i can see that. You are also a very passionate person for the things in life that make you happy. You are also very dedicated and determined with everything you do, and give 110% for everything.

It also shows your very artistic and has a gentle side, which you express in your music.

Lol, this is me just babbling But I do hope i'm partially right.

I think what you said is all true. I think you have just described me brilliantly.

Fuck yeah....I should be a freaking psychic




Lol joke, unlike the rest of us, who posted more what build us into the person we are today, you told us who this person is and it was cool lol.

Lol glad i got it right.

If you really knew me you'd know that ever since my dad died I've struggled to be happy. I fight with my mother and bf a lot, and my best friend betrayed me. I feel like no one understands me. I'm a very sensitive person, break down a lot and I have no confidence at all.

If you really knew me you'd know that it really pisses me off that my mom used to allow her ex-boyfriend (deceased - and may he RIP) hit me when I was younger. I have a some resentment for that. I grew to dislike him for that. I was no Angel as a kid, but that was not my father. He treated her well, did things for me... but this one thing has never sat well with me.

If you really knew me you know that I was threatened by a grown ass man to be sliced if I didn't give him all my cash. This happened because we made incidental eye-contant when I was crossing the street and he was turning the street corner. I was like 11 or 12. When I think about this this also makes me so angry because I'd love to see how this bitch would try to bully a 23yr old man who can can damn sure fend for him self a lot better now.

If you really knew me you'd know that I have no ounce of respect for my father. Haven't seen him in like 12 years - overall, I've seen him ten times max in my life. Haven't spoken to him in 7 or 8. Sperm Donor ftw!

If you really knew me, you wouldn't know me as much as you do now-I'm generally labelless, more than anyone can comprehend.

Another one, If you Really Knew me, I have problems thinking things through. When something goes wrong I feel stupid becasue of it. I always call myself stupid and dumb. I feel like everything I do is wrong and everything that goes wrong is MY FAULT.

I blame myself for everything, even something that happend to my sister-I cant say what or go into detail. I feel like if I didnt get in trouble at school or put my "friends" they wernt really my friends they used me too, on her boyfriend that day nothing will have happend.

I also feel people only want to be my friend just to use me, when something goes wrong they will dump me in an instant. I only have my family and 2 TRUE friends.

I have a lot of trust issues. I cant trust many people.

If You Really Knew Me.....

You'd know I'm really a good person.