Felt the same for years...still kinda do. But I have Greg and he makes all those bad feelings go away.



Not to mention I have my awesome sisters: Raylee, Danielle, Reign and Breanna. Then there Tank and you, Kevin.



these are people who keep me going. They give me strength to make it through another day. i cant tell you how to be happy but i do know if you keep going...it will happen for you. It has to. You deserve it.

I don't know, you know when they say you feel "numb" and just going through life.

I feel that way, i feel i'm going through life with no real purpose, just awaiting my deathbed literally.

always feel like all the happiness, everything people go through, what people get in life, will never come my way. I'm not saying that I don't deserve it or that i do deserve it....i just feel, i just won't experience it. No matter how bad I want all these things in life, it just won't come my way.

People tell me wait, it will come but i see people 4, 5 6....8 years younger than me, going through the things i so desperately desire, things i want so badly. It's just depressing i feel it's simply my fault. It's just not meant for me.

Then some say "you need to go out and find it", I have, i've tried many many many times and burned time and time again.

I just feel like i'm never going to be one of those people to find lots of success career wise in life, to know exactly what they want and go after it, I feel i will never experience true love. I fear i will never experience how to be truly independent.

I won't get much out of life and it scares me everyday. I'm dissapointed with my life, i'm dissapointed with myself and i'm dissapointed with the little i've accomplished in life and honestly, i don't see myself changing or ever being truly happy.

I'm one of those who people would expect nothing is ever wrong with me, i never show any sign of emotion or worry. I'm all about positivity.

you just need to find your inspiration....motivation to feel something..