Well, yesterday...had an uncle pass away from cancer. what makes it difficult, is it was my godfather so like...yeah. today, my 2 cousins came over today and were all rattled (it was their father as well) and like yeah. for some odd reason, familiy members don't really hit me as hard as they would someone else, I guess it's from knowing the end was inevitable and nothing could be done. got the viewing to go to and I love those oh so much.
other thing that's bugging me, went to the local rock club with some friends to see a few other friends and one of my female cousins in a band play their show earlier. well, the show was fine and my cousin was fine...until I heard she had a massive panic attack out front and the Ambo had to be called...so now im worried to death about her.
