Alright, so I'm just writing this down because I really have to tell people who don't know the guy and see what you guys think of the whole thing.
Basically, as everyone knows, I work at McDonald's, and there's this guy that works there with me. He's not attractive whatsoever. I would've never fallen for him if it was just for looks.
We've known each other for a long time. We worked together maybe 3 years ago? And then he quit and went elsewhere and basically stopped talking. Recently, he came back to McDonald's and we work together a lot. And since then, I've come out of my shell and I talk more. So he's getting to know me and I'm getting to know him as well. I have found out that he's completely straight, or so he says. I don't know, I'm fucking confused.
Here's the thing, he's very... "sexually frustrated" and likes to grope a lot of people. And he does it to me a lot. Like, he likes to gyrate his hips on me, and forces his body on mine a lot.
Here's a little back story for you to understand why that would even make me fall for someone. When I was younger, I never received any physical attention, like hugs or anything. I've never had someone who's hugged me as a kid (except my family, of course). Also, in third grade, a classmate bumped into me and basically made a huge scene about how disgusting I was. So... I kinda feel horrible about myself, and whenever someone hugs me or just simply "forces their body onto mine", it makes me feel wanted for once in my life.
Well, I basically fell for him. Hard. I've told him that I like him as well. And I have told him the reason as well. And he still hasn't stopped groping me.
For example, yesterday, I was hanging out with a group of friends and when that guy and I were alone, (we were sitting across from each other), he put his foot between my legs without exactly touching anything. But, I sorta closed my legs onto his foot to keep it there, and then he put it further, resting it there. Friends came back, he didn't move his foot. One of my friends notices and is like. "OMG WHY IS YOUR FOOT THERE?" And he quickly removes it. When we're alone, we have great talks. I love talking to him so much. He gives me butterflies and makes me nervous.
Here's where the confusing part comes in. Whenever I offer him a ride home, he doesn't want to get in my car. Last night, I wanted him to come with us because we were bringing one of my friends home, and he just left (after like 10 minutes of me trying to get him to stay). When I asked him through text if he was afraid of getting in my car, he sent "I don't know why." And here's the rest of the conversation, which gets even more confusing.
Me - Is it because there was too many people?
Him - Maybe
Me - I noticed that once people were gone, you started acting more like yourself.
Him - Ya
(He's horrible to talk with through text, as you can see)
Me - If we had been alone, would you have gotten in?
Him - Maybe. I don't know.
Me - Do I scare you? It's not like I'm going to rape you lol
Him - I know. And no you don't scare me.
Me - Well what the fuck is it then? There has to be a reason. Just tell me. I'm sure you know.
Him - No, I really don't know.
I gave up after that cuz his answers were fucking pointless.
My mind has imagined a thousand scenarios and I just don't know anymore.
What do you guys think? :S
Mon 22 Apr 2013, 1:02 pm by #WeWantTaryn